How To Survive Senior Year With Your Soul Intact— The Roux Bedrosian Edition
I’ve been having a “rough” start to the Fall semester—meaning, I’m already skipping classes, giving up on assignments, and having panic attacks. I mean, this was to be expected considering the burning hatred I hold towards the university I attend, moreover towards the higher education system in America as a whole. But, despite my desperate desire to get the hell out of there, I’m a mere two semesters away from getting my degree—that is, if nothing goes terribly wrong (which, considering my college track record, could totally happen).
Luckily, my parents (who I live with and who know how entirely miserable I am) have been nothing but supportive. They’re also pushing me to just get through it so I can have a “better” future, and I’m trying to because they’re technically right so long as I live in the U.S.
Thing is, I’m having an extremely difficult time even putting minimal effort forth (despite a genuine interest in my major). Worse, we’re only a fucking week into Fall classes. So, after yet another horrid day of commuting, stressing, wallowing in hate, pounding down too much coffee, and skipping too many lectures, this little idea struck me.
There’s not much I can change about my college situation. This late into the game, I have to take the classes I’m taking, I have to put up with the bullshit I’m putting up with. But, I can make a few minor changes to make the process a little more bearable—at least, I hope. I decided to write those changes out so they’d seem tangible. I also though that, by posting my “survival list” publicly, I’ll be more inclined to actually stick with it. Hell, maybe someone else’ll be inclined to make up their own. We can go on the grueling adventure together.
Now, my biggest problems lie within (1) actually finding the will to get out of bed and drag myself to campus (as I’m a commuter), (2) getting overwhelmed or swallowed up by college-related depression, which turns my mental/physical health to shit while sapping me of my creativity, and (3) feeling as if I don’t actually belong with the other people at school (as I never truly had the desire to be there in the first place). Then there’s some small stuff, like giving myself time to make myself look (and in turn, feel) good in the morning. As you can guess, I tried to tackle all of these with a couple of simple-enough fixes. Here’s hoping they actually make a difference.
I’m curious to know what some of you guys struggle with—and how you deal—because god knows I’m not the only desolate bastard out there. Really, feel free to hit me up with your list.
I’m sure I could use all the advice I can get.
Edit: I forgot to remind myself to never forget my headphones under ANY CIRCUMSTANCES WHATSOEVER.